as i lie with my headphones blaring .. i focus on nothing. nothing but the words .. the drums, the guitar .. the beautiful memories. i'm a part of it, a part of everything i hear. i step out of my body. i reach my arms out .. i try to grab whatever might be there. my eyes are closed. i touch something. i'm touching the music .. music itself in my hands. its havy but weightless .. blinding me in darkness. the beat of the song matches the beat of my heart. i love it .. i bathe in it .. i live it, it's mine ! - and only mine. it's too abstract for others. one thing i can do , i'll break a piece off .. it will grow forever. if you understand me , it's yours.